Irretrievable Time

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Sun, 19 May 2013 07:23:22 -0400

From my time in Chicago

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 02:52:23 -0400

From my time in Chicago

What I Want For Myself

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 02:15:39 -0400

When asked about what caused my shift to becoming an introvert, this was my response. It was quickly written and probably peppered with gramatical mistakes and incoherent thoughts, but I thought I’d share.

“I guess what changed was a realization that I wasn’t living up to maximum potential, economics classes played an integral role in that, because I became fascinated by the idea of resource maximization. Being around particular people really was not aiding me in the maturation of my intellect and morality. I was just doing what was needed to get by, and it occurred to me that if I kept doing that, I would end up in a situation where life just becomes an unsatisfying cycle. I dont want to work 5 days a week to only look forward to the weekend where i can go out with friends (that doesn’t even make sense statistically, to only be excited about 2 out of 7 days a week).

I figure i should live a life that will result in benefiting more than just me (I realized how much more rewarding selflessness was).

It scares me that most people live their lives and are forgotten by everyone, except those close to them. We are living at the climax of what will be remembered as the technological revolution, i want to to somehow contribute to the revolution… I suppose it is in line with my competitive nature, but I want to be remembered. Regardless of whether it is some invention or some idea in academia, that can be referenced and improved upon in the future to continue pushing humanity forward. I am not lost in how unlikely and unrealistic this may be know, but living with that aspiration at least gives me a chance to do so – also gives me a purpose in life. The chances I do so are also better than it was for people in the past. The creation of different outlets for exposure, like blogs and youtube make it possible to leave a lasting impression with at least a few people – who might just share it and be exposed to more people than I could ever imagine. And if it is shared, I hope those people who agree or want to be a part of what I am doing will reach out to me. Those are the type of relationships i really want to have.

Yuss, they came!

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 20:52:16 -0400

Yuss, they came!

Awkwardness is my new favorite state of being

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 04:09:24 -0400

i thirst for knowledge and it seems the more I attain the more parched become

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 02:29:00 -0500

credit to Max Marmer Don’t be deterred by the feeling of smallness that results from expanding...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 03:31:00 -0500

credit to Max Marmer

Don’t be deterred by the feeling of smallness that results from expanding your knowledge.

As you learn more you will inevitably realize how much you don’t know.

This may even make you feel stupid.

But don’t let it stop you.

Life is not about protecting your ego from any sign that it might be overinflated.

Again, the process perspective is a big part of the solution for forward progress.

The other crucial part is to recognize the whole dynamic of why of learning more can overwhelm you.

Let’s create a diagram in our heads to make sense of this.

Draw a circle.

Fill it in black.

Everything in that circle is what you know.

It is your knowledge.

Extend the radius of the circle a few inches beyond the perimeter of the circle and shade this area grey.

This is everything “You know you don’t know”.

The reason you feel stupid whenever you learn something new is because the grey area always expands faster than the black area.

Or in other words, your awareness of your “un-knowledge” always expands faster than your “knowledge”.

And although this may feel disheartening it really shouldn’t.

Why?

1) Knowing you don’t know something isn’t a bad thing, it’s actually a really GOOD thing.

Knowing “you don’t know something” prevents you from being blindsided by it.

If you don’t know anything about asset allocation you might decide to invest your entire net worth in the stock market because it feels right, and foolishly expose yourself to so much risk you lose all your money due to inability to withstand natural volatility.

But if “you know you don’t know” anything about asset allocation you can hire a money manager to properly balance the risk in your portfolio.

If “you know you don’t know” something you can ask for help.

The real evil is not “knowing you don’t know” something.

It’s “Not knowing you don’t know something”.

Or, in other words, “What you don’t know you don’t know”.

Scholar Umberto Eco famously had a library with 30,000 books, most of which he never read. This he called his “anti-library”

(http://ruchir75.blogspot.com/2008/01/umberto-ecos-anti-library.html)

Nassim Taleb highlighted this story of the Anti-Library as a way of reducing exposure to Black Swans. Big disastrous events hardly anybody saw coming like 9/11 Terrorist attacks, Katrina and the broken levees, and 2008 financial crises.

Let’s return to the diagram of the circle.

The black area is “what you know”.

The grey area is “what you know you don’t know”.

The rest of the empty space is “what you don’t know you don’t know”

Whenever the circle increases. The black increases. The grey increases more. But the white area shrinks.

2) The more you know the more you can do.

How could this possibly be a bad thing?

So what, if you can’t learn EVERYTHING?

Get over your omniscient God Complex.

Life is about learning, growing, adapting and creating.

The more you know the more you can build.

You’ve learned how to walk, how to speak, how to read, how to write. Don’t stop there.

You can learn to create products, services, and theories that CHANGE PEOPLE’S LIVES.

That DRIVE HUMANITY FORWARD.

Beginning to think marketing is more of a social science with business application.

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 13:45:28 -0500

doubt this will work, but I want some mental stimulation. Ask any questions that come to mind. Please!

Tue, 18 Dec 2012 11:28:31 -0500

Go fish

Thu, 22 Nov 2012 04:44:45 -0500

Go fish

I began to mature intellectually when my focus shifted from results to processes. Discovery is addicting.

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 02:36:26 -0500

Distraction and procrastination are contextually relative terms. From one perspective intellectual...

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 03:57:26 -0500

Distraction and procrastination are contextually relative terms. From one perspective intellectual discussions are “distractions” from work and execution. But work and execution can also be seen as “distractions” from our intellectual development and fulfillment.

And in the lives of the fortunate, the two are not separate. They inform one another. Our intellectual development inspires us to work on new problems and see them in different ways. Through work we can test and our intellectual and theoretical knowledge against reality.And our work and execution tests and refines our intellectual and theoretical knowledge against reality.

In order to reach full potential to both paths of development to actualize our potential. We just have to master proper allocation time to both. But work and intellectual development are competing in an eternal marathon. Sometimes intellectual development is dominant while work makes the occasional dash to catch up. Circumstances sometimes allow work to pull ahead.

It is both humbling and overwhelming to realize that life is a constant juggling act of developing not just these two dimensions but tons of them.

This internal inspection has awakened my awareness to better understanding and evaluating this non-linear world we live in. I must not only look forward but at every dimension that lies ahead.

Why Pathbrite Can Make You More Employable

Wed, 31 Oct 2012 03:09:00 -0400

Most of us lead repetitive lives, wake-up, let your fluffy, yellow-eared dog out to the yard to alleviate himself, brush your teeth, shower and get dressed. Then you walk to the train station, stealthily evading the 15 pieces of fecal matter left by your neighbors piglet in fear of the local Church showing up at your door and condemning you to hell for smearing what was clearly an image of the Virgin Mary. All of this only to realize you have to sprint a block and climb 45 stairs to catch your train, all so that you are not late to class. That class where the girl with the high pitched voice sits in the front row and provides answers to rhetorical questions, in a tone as if she was enlightening everyone with the solution to the Crocodile’s Paradox. You are so used to her now that not even her voice catches your attention anymore. In fact most things don’t catch your attention. Humans don’t really pay attention to anything unless it is required of them, it is something so amazing they can’t help but take notice or it is of extra-terrestrial nature.

And since you are not E.T’s brother you really won’t get much attention from a boss unless you standout. One way you can ensure you stand out is by not submitting a boring old resumé when e-mailing him or her about the job posting. The common resumé is a simple list of past experiences and positions you have had. That won’t get you too far, because guess what? 100 other applicants worked in their college cafeteria too. More likely than not Mr. Boss is thinking about what he is going to eat for lunch more than he is what is on your resumé.

So how can you b.s how valuable you are to an employer without a resume? Maybe instead of just saying you have an entrepreneurial spirit you can include a description of how one summer you decided to start selling ice cream made in a zip-lock bag so that you could pay for Cochella this upcoming year. How can you do this you ask? Well I’m sure there are plenty of photos of you on Instagram, where in one photo you shaking a zip-lock bag in black and white and in the next photo a glowing ball of orange sherbet ice-cream is being scooped out of that same zip-lock bag. Now instead simply being an adjectives in that bosses mind you are an action — and like the old saying goes actions speak louder than words. Be just like this cat and show some love and how you love on pathbrite.com. (insert some line about pathbrite being the best e-portofolio ever here). <—- Robert or Janette, the parenthesis was not a feeble attempt at humor, but a suggestion or catch phrase you guys often use at pathrbite would be much appreciated)

Gimme the Loot-Biggie Smalls

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 04:46:00 -0400

Gimme the Loot-Biggie Smalls:

Ever since I started carrying my leather-bound notebook for my writing with me at all times I don’t really find myself on tumblr.

Biggie getting through my night of econ studying. Song seems appropriate for my development microeconomics class.

Addicted to the nostalgia the chords provoke. A sort of...

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 05:02:00 -0400

Addicted to the nostalgia the chords provoke.

A sort of perfection found in the beat that drops right before Andre 3000 comes in — it serves as a guide through a subtle shift in emotion and state of mind.

Purification of emotion.

"It's not what I feel for you, it's what I don't feel for anyone but you"

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 06:33:00 -0400

Was approaching year 2

Since any desire

Had been so true

Wish I had a clue

Why it succumbed to you

Always have had problems dealing with a woman’s history

And yours being less than ideal Is no mystery.

Yet with you it’s easier to ignore.

But what’s unexplainable

is the insatiable yearning for more that burns at my core.

Tell me how you make me adore

The type of past i swore to never explore

Silly, stupid feelings don’t know what to do anymore

You’re something I really wasn’t hoping to restore

When horoscopes are relevant they are spot on but they also can be completely opposite of me.

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 16:38:00 -0400

Sagittarius is a well adjusted person with no emotional problems holding them back. They just want to explore the world and not fret about emotions and feelings. Others may be hurt by their lack of commitment but they don’t care, that’s not why they are on this planet, they are here to gain wisdom, learn and explore. Sagittarius has problems finishing some projects they started if it takes too long, they want immediate results and will move on to the next project if it takes too long. This is not because of laziness, Sagittarius are far from lazy but this motivation to move on is due to their hatred of boredom. Boredom is their fear and instead of facing it, they will up and leave in search of something more stimulating. Sagittarius are not emotional people but they are easily hurt by a careless selfish action, their will be blue but turn it around pretty quickly with their naturally sunny disposition. They don’t dwell on hurt because it is a waste of their energy. Sagittarius are detached from emotions because emotions hold a person back, they do not like to talk about their feelings, they simply experience them and move on.

How to Attract Sagittarius:

Talk to them, ask them questions about themselves, share stories, make them laugh, but do not pry into intimate details about their life. Keep your emotional distance and they will be attracted to you. Easy. Suggest an outdoor date, something wild and wacky like floating on a boat down the river then having a picnic by the riverside, anything.

"It’s not the future you’re afraid of. It’s repeating the past that makes you..."

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 05:59:27 -0400

“It’s not the future you’re afraid of. It’s repeating the past that makes you anxious.”

There is a strange pleasure in melancholy

Tue, 07 Aug 2012 06:11:14 -0400

rare mirror photo…result of procrastination

Thu, 26 Jul 2012 04:07:00 -0400

rare mirror photo…result of procrastination